For Chanell
(feast day for ohkay owingeh)
Poems by Char Tourtillott
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Sunlight does not tickle— she stings,
Sunlight does not sing— she shrieks.
Bending steel backwards and unraveling cottonwood bark.
Rays carving in your neck
will scar brittle folds of skin.
*
You’ve never had the taste of home cooked red chile stew.
This is first.
It burns the walls of your throat.
You dip earth oven baked bread into your bowl // grease juices absorbed // press against the roof of your mouth.
New drums — // familiar but not really, tell a story.
Dancers in the plaza // swift; they cradle dreams.
You finish the bowl and wipe it clean with bread.
The silence breaks with a friend's gleam.
*
Grandmothers bake under high sun,
beams do not gnaw into flesh;
they are equals.
Children parade with dyed teeth
and crisp braids—
the sun is soft
with her babies.
And vendors display visions
for purchase—
accepting the sting
from noontime golds.
*
Belly full of red chile and fresh bread.
A fattened heart
to combust and paint the earth.
Run fingers over shaded lines of teardrop, //
press // imprint.
You decide that these will shatter swift currents // tickle spine //
and absorb honey prayers.
Earring no.8
I scrape my nails against memory wall // the artery explodes — then scabs —
Sour liquid trickles from eyelids // a human carved from copper in a world that prefers gold
Splice my hair with ribbons like them ancient ones // and rub blackberry thorns against my gums to feel home
I stored childhood inside my spine so it doesn’t rust // dowse it into a bucket of maple so it will crystallize instead
Remembering the breath of my kokoh // sacred tessellations in the undergrowth are also her
Cutting quill shaped quartz on my teeth // the blood memory spills and burns scarlet in the sky